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Right, it was highly time to pick up the pieces now and that meant that she had to do what she had to do. In her wardrobe back in her apartment near Musutafu Shopping Centre was a high shelf, that she barely used cuz she would not be able to reach it but on that shelf still was one shirt, a clean vest more to say. And it had been there for a couple of months now, it was just with the internships that she barely had time between the classes, practice andddd her now student president of the class that she had no time to actually speed to Class 2-S room to give it back. So she did now, yes, on a Saturday, not to the classroom but to the dorms.
Which had took a bit off effort. First she put the vest nicely in a piece of paper so it wouldn't get dirty when she walked towards school. Carrying the vest towards it gave her a lot of memories, it was that she was on her way to school for some weird reason, she could not remember, that in that evening she was pulled into an alley. She definitely took another route nowadays to just avoid trauma, triggering, the thing was that she actually couldn't trigger lady anymore, which was a part of picking up the pieces. But how embarrassing was it to bring Yojin's shirt back only now. She had told them before, them as in himself and his roommate that she would do it before, cue 3 months later.
She had to convince the receptionist that she only needed to know the roomnumber to bring the shirt and not do anything... weird, seriously how did they keep up with that, were there cameras in the dorms? Hm, maybe she could visit Miku later, well first things first. So with the new information in mind she sort of sneaked to the boys dorm, okay maybe this was a bad idea, maybe she should log into the chat again to speak to them, should she? She didn't bump into anyone before reaching the stairs and quickly with a soft thread hurried to the right door on the second floor, twenty-threee... twenty- found, third door, okay now time to be a big girl, how the hell do you want to be a hero if you can't even bring a shirt back on a casual saturday... ha-ha.
She knocked on the door, took a deep breath and held the shirt in front of her, okay, this would be easy... hi Yojin, I just ehm am super late but I forgot to bring your vest back so here I am to bring it back, hand it over and bye, yea... yea that was all.
Chimera was still not used to staying up as late as he had been the last few months. Ever sense uncovering his roommates "extra-curriculum activities" and made a deal to help him, he had been sleeping less and less to keep the moron from getting into more danger than he was already in. How in the world did he manage this and classes without dying? Oh, right, he chugged energy drinks and coffee like it was ambrosia and smoked cigarettes to keep awake. Great anti-sleep-deprivation methods there. Chimera couldn't drink coffee or energy drinks without getting sick, and even if the smell didn't nauseate him he would never, ever take up smoking no matter what it did to help his exhaustion.
So suffering from lack-of-sleep it was. Wheeee.
Thank God it was Saturday and he could lay around in his room like the very tired, very grumpy cat-goat-dog-rabbit-thing that he was. Sure, Yojin was off doing something probably illegal again, but he would at least text Chimera if it was more than he could handle. Hopefully. What he hadn't expected was a knock on the dorm-room door without any sort of message before hand. Chimera sat up, stretching his arms high enough over his head that his spine popped a little, and pushed himself off the bed and started toward the door.
His soft feet muffled his steps on the wooden floor as he reached the knob, paused to make sure both the roombas were in their charging stations and this wasn't somebody coming to throw an angry saw-wielding robot at his head, and then properly turned and opened it to see whoever was standing outside.
He wasn't sure what he expected, but a blushing girl he didn't immediately recognize was not high on the list of possibilities. Huh. She looked kind of familiar, but he couldn't put a name to her face immediately. Where had he seen her before. Not his class, or in Support Studies (which he frequented a lot in the last year for stupid-roommate-related incidents and NOT to gawk at the assistant teacher), so where...oh! Emi's birthday. He'd seen her there!
That didn't help to narrow it down at all!
Chimera tilted his head, one ear raised up and the other slack in visible confusion. His eyes landed on the item she was holding. A piece of clothing? Had one of them forgotten something in the laundry, or was this one of the people Yojin had made a costume for here for repairs? "Hi, can I help you?"
Yojin, should she say his name... no that would be weird, no one said names, besides what was his surname again, did she actually apologize for what she had done in the only class they shared? Well she could do that now, casually bring it up, she shook the long hair over her shoulder, she might grip the vest a little too harshly and well the door would be opened soon, she swore she heard footsteps but that wasn't Yojin.
Surprised, as if she had forgotten for an entire second that dorms were shared, she stared at... at... Chimera! She knew it, they had that class as well, where Lady did stupid, she had seen him at the Music Night where she had been with Ryuu-senpai and well somewhere in the hallways probably it did not matter, ehm.. shit, she lost her words, she came to bring back Yojin's shirt. Yes, well tell him, "E-eh, I-I was looking for Y-Yojin." The blush intensified on her cheeks, how bad did that sound. She extracted her hands with the vest at once, "Eh, I-I have his vest." For three months, if not four, she did not know how to speak suddenly, so much for picking up the pieces again Rowan. She told herself, why could she not speak to Chimera, how bad would it be if she went and would speak to Yojin, oh god she had not seen him much apart from that night and well that was obviously very embarrassing and she did not want to think about it anymore, she almost pushed the shirt in Chimera's hands, she should leave, yes, leave them alone, she should not be here anyway because it were the boys dorm, but she held on, did not push anything and so on, she simply held it up still and now a wry smile appeared on her lips and she took a deep breath. "Sorry, I should not have come so early." She might have disturbed them in the early morning.
She was here for Yojin? Well, that made some sense, if she was one of the students he'd made costumes for. He couldn't remember every new order his roommate got--it felt like the techies in Support Studies were getting more and more popular by the day--but he still had the nagging feeling that he knew this girl from somewhere. Maybe something about her body language was making it hard for him to recognize her. She was acting so shy and anxious, and he couldn't recall anyone like that; if they'd met in a class, she must have been in costume or putting on some sort of airs...unless...wait, this wasn't a costume.
Chimera made a confused yipping sound as the large shirt was shoved into his paws. Nope, not a costume at all, he recognized this shirt by scent alone. Which was very, very weird. Stupid dog nose. Stupid cigarette-smoking Yojin.
Not a costume, knows Yojin, had his shirt, and I know her from somewhere...
Oh! Stupid! Geist's class! She burned the hell out of my arms! Rrr...rrow...
"Rowan?" Chimera spoke up, half to be sure he had gotten her name right, and half to give her pause before she got too far. If he wasn't remembering it wrong, the reason why she had Yojin's shirt--and the reason why, if any, she was acting so awkward--was not a pleasant one. He could remember that night. Another student missing from campus, another terrifying threat, and, again, another time Yojin had vanished to help somebody and put himself in danger. The crazy self-preservation-less bastard was going to get killed, but he couldn't fault him. Not completely. Not when the girls he had gone out to help were safe and sound at school, and nobody even knew he was involved.
Chimera smiled weakly, ears low, concerned, and he stepped into the hallway so that he wasn't in the door blocking her out. "If you wanna wait for, like, ten minutes, he's probably coming back from...uh, where he goes on his days off? I can give him a call, and tell him you stopped by? I'm sure he wants to catch up, after...yeah." He scratched the back of his neck with his claws, "Um. If you don't want to, no pressure. Just. I guess, I wanted to know how you've been holding up? Since then? We have, uh, a lot of snacks and energy drinks, if you want any. Some of them even have legal amounts of caffeine. I think."
She should stop blushing like an idiot but not only the fact that she had to tell someone else that she had Yojin's clothing, she had simply not thought about roommates, it might be her spoiled ass as she lived on her own because she was simply not good at sharing and well, she had burned Chimera and he pushed her off the platform and after that, not much later she had fainted... yes, great new meeting. No, wait, she was going to pick up the pieces. She just felt too embarrassed to say anything, that wasn't her, that was-that was... yea well she wasn't here anymore and Rowan had to challenge her own bravery to continue.
Her eyes lit up a little from surprise and well simple recognition as Chimera mentioned her name, yea she was maybe one of the many girls, it wasn't difficult to recognize Chimera, and well especially if she had seen the song they perform at the Fourth Corner. She nodded, and frowned, not sure what to say, the invitation had caught her by surprise just as much as the calling out of her name, "O-oh, I mean I don't want to bother you." She shrugged a little, but it would be nice to say sorry about that before and be able to thank Yojin again, she thought to herself and in the end took a step back to Chimera. But it seemed a rather nice invitation and she hoped Tsuchiya-san wouldn't come to kill her but she simply smiled, "But it sounds nice." And she had giggled because of the joke about legal amounts of caffeine. So she had taken another step back, but she wasn't sure how to tell how she was holding up, it was rather something she had not to think about and now that Lady was gone and hopefully Nick it was a lot easier. But it would maybe be okay to talk to someone, maybe even someone who wasn't her friend, so she could not break away from the like 2 she had. She almost sighed, it would be nicer to have more friends, so let that be her goal for this morning. "Well if you don't mind, than I would love to wait a bit." Could she consider Yojin her friend? She wasn't exactly sure, this was a lot more difficult, this friend dynamic, he saved her after all, he helped her with her arm. Confusion was surely one of the things that she understood best: You have no idea what you feel.
"It's no bother! Really. I'm sitting around avoiding taking a nap--" Or studying, the more mature part of his brain chimed in, but Chimera was very good at ignoring that part of himself when he was exhausted, "--so..come right on in."
The room itself was surprisingly neat, perhaps, given one of its inhabitants. While Yojin's desk was a mess of various metal scraps and blueprints and open cans of various questionable substances, the floor was clean and his bed was made. Chimera's desk had his laptop on it, as well as a small clay snail and a key-chain of a small depressed looking egg tucked into the corner. The desk chairs were rolled around to act as second end-tables rather than chairs, but Chimera scooped up the music books (and textbooks buried beneath them) and set them atop his laptop so Rowan had a spot to sit that wasn't one of the beds if that made her more comfortable. "My only warning is to mind your toes and ankles. The roombas don't have saws attached to them today but they can still be vicious little buggers once they start up. If they start up." Chimera set Yojin's shirt on his roommate's pillow and then knelt next to the bed-side table, opening the drawer and revealing that it was, in fact, no longer a wooden bed-side table, but a carefully hidden wood-encased mini-fridge.
Sometimes having a crazy tech-genius for a roommate had its perks.
It was countered by all the 3am explosions and fire hazards.
He took out a trio of different energy drinks that didn't have any warning labels or colors that triggered the animal part of his brain into going "that thing is full of poison", and held them up for Rowan to choose from with a single large paw. "Any of these look good to you? I can't recommend any, but these look the least dangerous." He grinned a little more, canines displayed in a way he never really liked but couldn't help. Should she pick one she'd return the two she hadn't to the fridge before closing the "wooden" door and standing up.
"So, uh, heh. We haven't really talked since that lesson where Yojin broke the objective and Geist-sensei got super pissed off. It's good to see you're still around." Chimera paused to tap his fingers against each other, trying to think of the right words to say. It never worked, but at least he tried. "Not that I thought you went anywhere. I. I had no reason to say that. That was a dumb thing to..." WORDS. "...what I meant to say I think was 'it's good to see you again'. And I'm going to pretend that was me mixing up my Japanese and not my brain running on midterms-sleep-hours." He smiled a little sheepishly, which was an odd look for a goat-dog-thing, then picked his phone off the bed and sent Yojin a quick message:
[CHIMERA @yojin:] Hey workaholic, Rowan stopped by the dorm room to say hi and bring back your shirt. Do you want to talk to her? Are you close to home? I can stall but you know me and talking to people.
He kept the phone in his paw as he sat down on his bed. "What have you been working on this last year? Um, like, hero-school-things wise, or other stuff."
Well surely she could than keep Chimera company or he her because at these points she never knew what or how it worked it was rather tiring to think too difficult so when she learned it was no bother, she let it go and just simply accepted, easy as that. She looked around, not only because it was the boys dormitory and she wondered if it was clean but most of all: she had never seen the dorms. Convincing her parents and with the wealth they had, they immediately went to find a small apartment for her instead of even considering the "nasty" dormitories, so look at her being all surprise of the neatiness and how still spacious it was when you had two desks, two beds and so on, it wasn't bad.
She almost giggled with what Chimera said and thanked him for the chair before she frowned. "You mean to say that on other days they do have saws attached?" She took the chair he made free for her, really appreciating it because in general she would not be comfortable to sit on a bed, beds were not made for that and so on. So she sat on her left leg, with the shoe dangling off the seat and her right was on the chair's rollers, so that would mean she was save, she was rather intrigued by the idea of the roombas and looked for them but nothing obviously happened, apart from that she shortly followed Chimera with her eyes as he put the shirt on the bed and went to get something from the bed-side table, which made her sit up straight, that was a fridge?
She frowned a little and looked at the cans Chimera offered, "You don't know?" She was surprised, but maybe she should be a little more adventurous? She simply took the middle one and held it in her hands that she folded on her lap and she looked at it, again frowning, this surely was a new experience for the rich kid and that wasn't necessary bad but it did make her feel slightly vulnerable and stupid.
The way Chimera mentioned the class, she could not help but giggle, if you put it that way it was actually kind of funny, which it had not been. She tilted her head a little when Chimera stammered because she wasn't sure what it was about, "I am sorry about that lesson, I had the full intention to apologize, it's really difficult to well know what you can and can't do with explosions." She nodded, and basically pretend to not hear the struggling before. Chim continued and she wasn't sure what to say, "Ehm a bit of everything but mostly you know, the firey stuff, how to be no danger myself." She nodded, could she be more awkward? "The internship surely makes it interesting. And the opportunities are wonderful." She said a little beaming and happy because yea it was a new experience, not that it all went sunny but she tried to forget that.
Chimera looked wearily down at the space between Yojin's bed and the floor again at Rowan's question. "...yes, and if you think I'm joking, I could start one up. Though I don't know where Yojin keeps the blades. I caught one trying to go through the air vent a week ago...I don't know how it got up to it, either." The adventures of the daring doombas of UA's dormitories had become almost memetic over the course of the last year and a half, and in the end Chimera had come to actually find them funnier than he did terrifying. He even felt bad when one of them had been blown up by Jaeger's pet chicken--which he didn't know how that happened nor did he really want to. At least it had been fixable.
"Nope. I don't drink energy drinks. They do weird things to me. Too many chemicals in the genetically-animal body, y'know?" He shrugged his shoulders and leaned back a little with his paws pressed into the bed. Remembering how badly that lesson went wasn't great for his confidence. He'd made a lot of bad choices. Going after Yojin for petty, mostly-playful revenge had been dumb, even if leaving the idiot alone with a robot would have been just as bad; he hadn't been taking good enough care of himself and got burned for it; and he'd been more worried about the well-being of the others than him winning.
The last one didn't bother him so much, given they were his fellow students and not actual villains, but it had still been a factor that cost him the match.
He let out a small bark of laughter. "No, it's fine! It's totally fine! I'm pretty resilient, and you were just doing what we were supposed to do. I knocked you off the platform to a pretty steep drop. I think we're even." She continued on about what she'd been doing lately, and he felt a twinge of guilt as she tried to speak without fumbling like he had. Not being a danger to herself? "You aren't fire-proof?" Chimera caught himself speaking allowed, winced slightly, and backpedaled. "I mean, uh, the internships sounded like a lot of fun. Who did you get paired up with? I got Army of One, and she was pretty cool, but I was thinking of going for...I dunno, somebody that I don't have so much hero worship over? Then maybe I can actually pay better attention?" His slight self-deprecation was only for fun, he didn't really think he'd done poorly in his internship. He'd been able to focus just fine after the awe wore off.
Now if it had been Serperior on the other hand... Noooooo way I'd been able to concentrate. I'd get killed. Or worse.
"Outside of hero stuff what've you been up to? Are you in a club or...um," he scratched his muzzle with a claw. "Have you...been alright since that night?"
She followed Chimera's gaze to the floor and she lifted up her other foot, "Eh, no thanks." She definitely did not mind that he had no idea where the blades were, "I definitely believe you." She wouldn't actually be surprised if Yojin was able to install something like that and she was sure he could invent a few more things.. okay shut up. She told herself, she should not make this... ordeal... or whatever it was bigger than it should be and she even caught herself in the act of looking at the door. Pathetic. She told herself that she should be going before Yojin came, yes, smart idea. She quickly put her attention back to Chimera. Which was the point where he held the energy drinks in front of her face.
She picked the one in the middle, she had no idea what to think of it but she looked at it and nodded, "Well let's hope it works fine for me." How interesting quirks could be if only she showed more interest to it, now she was afraid it might turn on the burn part of her body but she simply opened it, the smell was a little too sugary for her but she took a small sip, it actually had an okay flavour, it was a very coffee like flavour and it happened that she loved coffee. She took a bigger sip but that made her cough, okay, that wasn't just coffee. She blushed a bit, so small sips were survivable. Okay, this was stupid, she should leave but she did not want to leave at the point that Chimera asked her things so, she remained seated. She also decided that she should apologize of what she had done and was glad for his laughter though, her shoulders slumped a bit and let go of that tension. She nodded, she could not remember much of that, she only remember waking up in Geist's arms... now that was confusing. "Ehm, not that I know, I have tried to get more used to it, I mean ha apart from my own powers, I get red as a lobster in summer, my body doesn't like anything to do with sun, heat, fire, anything really." She spoke a little more loosely now, warming up to the person and conversation.
"Ah Igarashi-sensei." She said with a little smile, but why did Chimera speak in the past tense, "You did not go on a new internship yet?" She asked a little surprised, "I am now with Hellhound." and she knew Shockwave had asked for her but they needed to come to a moment where she would have time to jump into another internship perspective. She had heard about Army of One but she wasn't really a fan, it was the eh.. spider perspective. She laughed a little, "I get that, I had the same with ehm well both, I felt really nervous when they asked me questions. But I sort of managed to focus on my goal, and that made it easier, in a way." She took another small sip of the coffee-energy drink. She still wasn't sure what she thought of it.
She wanted to answer his first question but froze when he asked about the night and she stared at him for a good few seconds before she managed to avert her eyes, "Oh ehm." Yes, what to answer, "It's eh a sort of nightmare as I don't remember what happened." Would it be stupid to say it happened again? How stupid would you already feel that you fell for it as a student and it happened again... Ha, Switch might be wrong.
It looked like she was surviving the first few sips, so at the very least Chimera hadn't given her some kind of poisonous concoction Yojin had been brewing for midterms. He had to reign back a snicker when she choked. "Uhh, try not to die in my dorm, that'll be hard to explain?" He was kidding, obviously, but at least it was easier to smile at bad jokes than it was serious conversation. Rowan went on to relay her Quirk's own miserable side-effects. While he was not somebody with literal fire in their system, he could relate to a lot of her woes. "Tell me about it. This fur turns into oven if I stay out in the heat for too long, let alone in summer. Bleh. You'd think U.A would have invested in, like, triple the normal amount of A/C units for all the heat-impaired students here."
Given how many fans he had hidden in the dorm closet--aside from those that had been turned into various weapons or otherwise dangerous contraptions--it wouldn't be too out there to maybe petition the school for better cooling units.
"I...did. It didn't last very long though. I think Army of One was just too busy for us." Chimera's smile turned down a little at the corners, ears drooping. His moods were always so easy to read, damn it. Like how his ears perked again when she kept talking, head tilting to the side. "Hellhound...oh, dang, the one with 'Inferno Mantle'?...yes I frequent pro hero websites, I'm not ashamed." He coughed into a paw. What, keeping up with information was important! "I can see how she'd be perfect for you as a teacher. Hell, maybe she can teach you how to fly? If your Quirk can do something like that, too? Maybe?"
Chimera visibly frowned. Shit. He shouldn't have brought this up. What had he expected her to say? "Yeah it was bad but I'm totally fine now"? Of all the people at U.A, he'd know that wasn't how trauma worked. He'd been the damn poster child of Semper Fi thanks to that video. Idiot. "Um. I. I'm sorry for...if you don't want to talk about it, I can...shit. Just..." He shook his head, trying to figure out what he should say or do right now. When his mind settled on it, he drew in a small breath and force a slight--but heavily concerned--smile back to his muzzle. "I know I'm not, like, a professional, and not really your...well. But I think sometimes it's easier talking to people you don't know about this sort of thing. At least. It's how I managed to get a lot of...stuff...off my chest. Even if it sucked. But you don't have to talk to me about anything you don't want to."
Ironically he felt like he was handling a frightened animal. The details of what happened to Rowan were still up in the air--if Yojin knew more than the rest of the school did, he hadn't shared. Damn secretive son of a bitch, caring about other people's autonomy and personal damages like a good person.
She blushed when Chimera made a joke, what had she just told herself, "I will try. Blame it on your roommate if it happens though." She snickered a little, yes, roommate, not saying his name would work out fineeee. This was all too ridiculous! The contrast in her own mind made it almost feel like someone was back, but Lady would have much harsher words about Yojin, she would probably push Chimera to answer questions that would not have crossed Rowan her own mind in general, it was better this way, for certain, Rowan did not feel unsafe right now, she felt herself and even if that brought blushing moments or ridiculous thoughts, she was sure it were only that: thoughts.
She nodded, "Maybe it's good to point it out? I mean if they don't think about it, they might just not know?" It was a ridiculous question but Rowan had learned from her own perspective that she missed quite a few p.o.v.'s in her life which had made her not the nicest person in the beginning of the school year, had made her falling into a trap blabla and now she was just here, asking questions if she did not understand and try to be more open minded. Sometimes that still did not work with how she wanted it but it went a lot better for sure. "I bet there are more who have this issue." She thought out loud, but yes, if no one said it, no one else would know, especially if none of the teachers had those issues, or maybe one did, "Isn't your homeroom teacher one with fur too? He will understand I am sure!" Try to stay positive, that's what Nakahara-sensei had taught her. It was something.
Another point of where she thought about the way Nakahara-san has been was the internships, she nodded, she was scared of Army of One, Rowan had tried to convince herself that she was still human even if she looked like a spider but well thank god she had only seen articles and websites around her and not bumped into the hero herself. She shivered because she thought of the literal bump in. She looked a little sad about the fact that the internship did not turn out what Chimera hoped for. She nodded when she gave her idea about Hellhound and laughed a little about the idea of pro hero websites, "I doubt you are the only one." She winked, yes even if she had barely time it was interesting to read and she wouldn't deny she was reading the gossip columns. "Hmm maybe if I can kick my explosions down I can create a momentum?" But the idea, even if she had first pulled a serious face made her giggle, it was good to think about her quirk in a positive sense though. She bit her lip, "I ehm, how to say it, I mean I don't know that much about our teachers and so on personally, but I bet many like you, so why not ask the ones you think would be able to teach you something? I feel like they might be a bit overwhelmed with the system, after all it's our first time as well as theirs. Like what do you want to learn and as a frequent website stalker," She stuck out her tongue for the word, "You must know someone that could help you out." She tried again to sound positive, but maybe it was time to admit something, she looked at the can and turned it around in her hands, "I send a letter to Hellhound asking if she would pick me."
The conversation turned to something she did not know how to talk about, it made her freeze and insecure and she looked away from Chimera. From the corner of her eye she looked at the boy, what to say, she had not even thought about anything else but herself right now, it made him uncomfortable too and he just tried to be nice, but.. yes, what if it happened again. "It's not like I don't want to talk about it, I am sure it might help, the problem is that I still don't know what is true or not. I can't remember. All I remember is that I felt so much pain and that I was crying and that Yoj-Yojin was looking at my shoulder." Which was not much, "It was Yojin who told me that it was Bucket, I mean how can I miss something so... I dunno big, in my memory." She knew how but even with her gone some memories were retained and some did not and besides, no one would be happy if she spoke the name of Nick out loud, so she tried to refrain from that: forever.
This however made her feel like crying again. Thank god she really could not, there must be much more pressure than just shit feelings.
"Eh, I've blamed him for weirder things than spontaneous death. Not really. But it feels like it sometimes..." Chimera's eyes went from where they'd been once more glaring beneath the bed opposite them, then back to Rowan's face. Was she blushing? Huh. What for? Come to think of it she'd been kind of awkward about this whole thing from the get-go. He could understand if she felt bad about everything, or felt like she was to blame for what happened--she absolutely wasn't but the brain did bad things sometimes, he would know--but embarrassed? He couldn't wrap his head around where that was coming from.
Chimera nodded both at Rowan's suggestion to talk to a teacher, and her query about the 2-B homeroom teacher. "Yeah. I'll try to bring it up closer to spring, maybe? Since winter is fine, I wouldn't want to push it for no reason."
Now it was his turn to blush. Or, well, he was blushing, but it was invisible beneath the dense fur on his face. The wide-eyed look of dread and ears drawn back still revealed more about him mood than he'd have liked before he turned away, covering his muzzle with his paw and mumbling into it. "I...don't know about that. I'm nothing special Quirk-wise. I just look like this. So. It's not like I've got something cool to bring to the table. I don't want to bother any of them just for that. And. I don't even know where I'd start. A lot of those with Quirks like mine are...so different from me. Except one, maybe, but..."
His thoughts drifted. In terms of brute strength--and an extremely prominent mutation Quirk--the hero Wagyu was suited pretty well for him. But Chimera wasn't sure how to reach the man or even what he'd say, or if he wasn't too busy. He didn't want to bother anybody.
I'm not worth it.
Focusing on somebody else's problems were a great way of ignoring your own. Chimera's eyes filled with worry, smile threatening to fall off his muzzle and shatter. She didn't remember? Christ. Were the memories traumatic enough that her mind had suppressed them? Had it been somebody's Quirk, or maybe even a head injury? No, from what he'd been told by Yojin it was her arm that had been fucked up, and that tracked with what she was saying about her shoulder. That didn't remove the first or second possibilities. But if it was Bucket--the bastard--like Yojin said, then the Quirk idea was a stretch. Why would that guy have a Quirk that had to do with removing people's memories? He was a literal bucket-head, for fuck's sake. Man, what a weird Quirk.
...pot, meet kettle.
How can I help her though?
Chimera was quiet for a little while, trying not to leave enough space for Rowan to start regretting saying anything or thinking she'd shocked him into silence or something like that. He had an idea that might help her, but it was personal. Very personal. But in a funny way, it wasn't, for the same reasons...
"I...again, not a professional, at all. But. I was told growing up that sometimes your mind just puts things away for your sanity, that you can't handle. Usually traumatic memories or experiences. Not perfectly, like," he sighed softly, and started kneading the bed with his claws absentmindedly, "Like what you may be experiencing, but...maybe with time and help they'll come back and you can work through them, but for now, your brain's trying to protect you by hiding those memories. I had a couple of them when I was younger. Foster system in the United States is already hard enough without...looking like this. I had to go to therapy a lot after I finally got adopted. Honestly, it sucked." A weak smile cracked onto his face, but it wasn't especially cheerful. "Anyway. I'm saying you shouldn't feel guilty for not remembering. Brains are weird and do things that we don't realize and...maybe this is yours trying to save you from something really frightening, until you're somewhere safe you can handle it."
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The heart is a heavy burden ❤
She wanted to say something, just be casual Rowan. But she flipped her hair over her shoulder and her brain told her that that wasn't casual. "I am rather curious." Neither was that but at least the managed to avoid saying his name and stutter like an idiot. What... did... she tell herself, couldn't she just listen for god's sake. No, no talking about Yojin, she would finish the conversation and hurry the hell out of here, she had done her job, like 3 months late but she had done it. She noticed eventually that Chimera was looking at her and as she was already blushing, she blushed more and looked away, at the can, trying to casually take another small sip.
She hoped they could talk about something else and that worked. "Hm I would say it now, so they have time to fix it, you know." Good saying Rowan, be a friend, or something like that. "I mean there is no harm to just suggest it?" As they continued talking about internships Rowan could read Chimera still like a book and that made her perch up her right eyebrow. She did her very best not to giggle, she couldn't catch entirely what he said but if he thought anything like her than she had a very good idea. Only thing is she promised her dad and that's how she got over that barrier. "Nonsense." Was all she started with when he said he wasn't special quirk-wise. "Listen, I know we don't know each other well but I always have the feeling every one speaks highly off you and everyone here should consider themselves worthy, else you would have never made it into the second year. Just ask the pro-hero, I mean it flatters them as well, that's how I convinced myself to do it and it worked out fine for me and Hellhound. They like it when you ask them because it gives them validation too and this whole thing is new so everyone doesn't know what to expect or think of anyone or themselves." So wow, where did that frustration come from... young lady. She realized herself that she felt like a nobody, a nothing and that she was doing so much to get that recognition from everyone but herself was still not there. Her dad allowed her to still be here after two attacks, which was a miracle, and people took her for internships which was a second miracle but the biggest one maybe was that they forgave her for Lady. They understood, which was something that she wanted to put behind but she should not forget that, she was wanted here at least.
She took a deep breath and looked away again, "Sorry. I don't even know what I am talking about." And probably because she looked uncomfortable and maybe a bit heartbroken Chimera asked about that night and she had to tell him heartbroken again that she did not remember. She continued talking, looking at the can that she held with both hands on her lap because she did not know how stupid it was to admit this. What a hero huh. She looked up when Chimera talked and the fire-girl wasn't sure if she had done a good thing, he had been quiet. And now he didn't seem to know what to say, this is why you learn to shut up, Rowan.
The thing Chimera said was nice, in a way, but now she was dreading even more what it was about. Instead of saying that though she nodded, "Yes, I thought maybe going to Ganbaroshi-san or Nakahara-san if they have time. I am not sure if I want to remember but it's been a lot of things I don't remember from the past year and they keep tumbling up, I want to know what I did so I can take that responsibility that is probably linked to it." Ha nice way to avoid talking about Lady.
Curious? She was curious about...oh, the weirder things he'd seen in here than spontaneous death. Chimera snickered softly, trying not to look at her a little funny with her hair-flipping and stiff posture. "Man, I don't know. Yo-kun does some crazy shit in here and I'm always getting some sort of blame for it. Were you around the dorm when he was testing out that little paper-canon thing he has now? Like, two weeks back. It knocked, like, everything off every surface in sight, like a cat. He said I did it in the chat but...come on, it was a shoulder-mounted mini-canon, it wasn't hard to miss. The little bastard."
He felt his muzzle continue to grow hotter the more Rowan spoke. Saying she knew that people spoke highly of him just made his insides twist up in a way that was both good and bad. Good, because if she was being honest, it was a pretty good boost to his shoddy self-esteem; bad, because even if it were true, he was never a fan of his name being spread around. That uTube video had done that enough without help. But maybe she was right. A hero might be very happy to receive a personal request from a student, whether or not it was from somebody like him or somebody exemplary like Darren or Kirk or...
Well, herself, obviously.
Then again, he'd been voted into the top twelve, so...maybe he, too, was...
His mind wouldn't let him finish that sentence, but it didn't go away, either.
"N-No, I...thank you. It. I have, uh, probably the most terrible confidence ever, even not accounting for," he waved his paw around his face, "All of this. So. It means a lot to hear from you, even if we don't know each other super well. And we can fix that, maybe, if you want to? Like, not right now, if you don't want to, but I'm pretty free most of the time to just play video games or talk or whatever. So." Chimera's smile was a little stronger, a little friendlier. Rowan felt like she might need more friends, too, with what she was talking about.
A paw raised and hesitated for a moment by her shoulder, then pulled back. He wanted to do that whole "reassuring touch" thing that he knew other people did so easily--Saito had freaking hugged him, but Chimera wouldn't go that far. But he wasn't sure if between her incident with the villain and what she was talking about if she would want that or not. So he watched her to see if she drew back or not before he tried any such action. If she did, he'd quickly stop.
"If you think that you really, really have to do that, I bet the teachers would do all they can to help. That's their job, right? And...if it's frightening or upsetting they can help you through that stuff as well. Probably." He was pretty sure of that. Heroes weren't just the sorts of people who saved people from burning buildings or fought off criminals; they were also there to help in more delicate situations like these ones. "But...don't force yourself to do it just because you think you need to. You can take your time with it. Prep yourself, you know?"
Post by Rowan Sakamoto on Dec 4, 2019 15:45:45 GMT -4
The heart is a heavy burden ❤
It wasn't going exactly the best, she should stop trying to be interesting and casual. She wasn't sure if it was working anyway and she was maybe giving a bad representation of herself. She was tired of the actng but she would not stop it, because now that it was switched on, it wouldn't switch off. She looked shortly at the door for two reasons. One was to avoid Chimera's look when he said Yo-kun, that sounded so cute and she needed to calm down and the other was maybe for a slight hope that the person whose name was cute would come in. God it wasn't like she was here only for Yojin, she was interested in what Chimera said and it was nice to talk to him. She took a sip of the drink again and turned her attention back.
Now stop blushing!
She stared surprised at Chimera as they continued their conversation and she said he was known and that she was sure heroes would be flattered if they were asked, yes, that was scary but it worked and she was surprised that he had a terrible confidence in himself. She blinked only more and did not even know what to say, it might even become a little awkward but it sure helped that Chimera smiled and she answered that. "I want to learn about video games?" She tilted her head a little, trying to focus on the curiosity that she felt instead of pushing the unknown factors. She could not say something as that it was unbelievable, after all, he just told her and they were telling each other things and she was actually getting a little happy about the fact that she might have made a new friend. That's how friends worked right? That's how it worked with Kirk, even though she- nope, not think about the fact you burned him on one of your first meetings. Oh... now she did it anyway.
When they were talking about her memory, which was a weird thing to consider and maybe she should get help with it or simply let it go, the latter way definitely sounded nicer and she looked surprised but didn't draw back when Chimera came closer to her and she was surprised how comfortable it felt and her shoulders slumped a little. "I don't know, on one hand, I want to know if ehm I did something bad? Does that make sense but nothing had come to haunt me yet so maybe I should let it go." She had no intention of telling about Lady, she did not want to scare people more off. She nodded a little more, "Yea I shouldn't overhaste stuff." Because that might make matters worse and she definitely didn't want that, she took a deep breath, "Surprisingly talking about it feels less bad than I thought." It didn't give answers but with Chimera's casual way of handling it, in a way it was casual enough for Rowan, she felt more normal than she had thought so before.